Swim #11, I think (500 times)

Today I was supposed to Swim #11, a straight 3,000. I did not. I started in the MFY outdoor pool, which is a 50-m pool, compared to the 25-yd pool I'm used to swimming in. So my 500 times were a lot slower than I'd anticipated, and I wasn't happy. 9:55 and 10:16, I think. Compared to the other times:

• May 22: 9:38 (I might have added 50m, and here I breathed with every left stroke), 8:51 (here and for the following, I breathed with every other stroke), 8:46, 8:52, 8:57, 8:52. Average (counting the first at 8:50): 8:51 per 500. Total time: 53:58.39
• March 24: 8:34, 8:32, 8:38, 8:51, 8:52 (1:45, 1:47, 1:48, 2:39 [extra 50, so we're going with 1:49], 1:43). Average: 8:41 per 500. Total time: 43:31
  
• March 5: 7:58 (I might have missed 50m here), 8:59, 9:12, 9:10, 9:04 (1:51, 1:51, 1:50, 1:50, 1:43). Average: 8:52 per 500. Total time: 44:28
  
• February 17: 10:01 (extra 50), 8:32 (missed 50), 9:53, 7:33 (missed 100), 9:26 (1:52, 1:53, 1:52, 1:52, 1:47). Average: 9 minutes per 500. Total time: 45:02

Then I was supposed to have ridden 1:15, but I did that on Tuesday, so I should have done Tuesday's 1-h run. I could not do it. I started by running out the back way from the MFY. I ran about 3 minutes and started walking. Then I turned around to try again. I lasted another minute, and just couldn't do it. I just didn't have it. I don't know why. I couldn't do it. I turned around and headed back, stayed on the elliptical trainer for about 10 minutes, and called it a day. It felt horrible. I just didn't have the desire to work hard. Or really to work at all.

Then I went home, got ready, and went to Inversion. I never even get out of the car. I just didn't want to talk to anyone, and knew I'd have to since I could see Nelia from my car. I didn't want to make small talk. I didn't want to do anything. So I went home and read a little and went to bed. What a disappointment of a day.